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Moving On

The good times times  you share with your family, friends and pets – all the people who matter in your life. There’s also the bad times when you have a fight with your friend or  when your pet dies or when your family gets angry with you. Something I just described happened this week. No – I’m not talking about fights with friends or family. I’m talking about a pet dying.

If you’ve been reading my blog you know my betta fish Calvin then you probably know I loved him a lot. This past Wednesday I was cleaning my tank for Calvin. Something devastating happened.  Calvin had died. I was really sad that it had happened. I actually did think there was something more I could do. I thought it was my fault, but my parents reassured me that it wasn’t. Sometimes crappy things just happen.  Instead of watching Calvin go down the toilet, what most fish owners do when  their fish dies , I did something a little different.  I went to the back of our yard with container still full of water and Calvin in it.  I had a shovel with me. When I got to the back of the yard, I dug a hole.  I poured the container out into the hole.  The hole is pretty small , but trust me it made sense. Small fish – small hole.

Sometimes, it’s really hard to let go of the things you love. Everyone has gone  through something like this. Even though I am still recovering from my loss, I know that I have done good taking care of Calvin.  He died happy and that’s all that matters. Please comment if you have gone through something similar.

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5 Months (going on 6) Anniversary

It’s been five months going on six of being in Saskatchewan. WOW!!! Time does fly!!! Although we’ve been here this long I still get waves of homesickness at the most unexpected times in the days. Also, I still have mixed feelings about this move.

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Feeling Sad and Homesick

Although I have those feelings and the homesickness, I still have done stuff I’ve never done before!! Things like:

Traveling like no tomorrow – I’ve done so much traveling I haven’t seen tomorrow.  I’ve been to North Dakota and all over most of Saskatchewan.  I’ve seen Manitoba and a lot of Ontario.

I’ve volunteered at places.  My favourite is the SPCA and the white husky I walk.

Gone to a football game.  They really like football here.  That one gave me the chance to say I don’t like football.

Doing many after-school activities I never could do before like guitar, drama and soccer.  Before we could only afford one after school activity.  Here I can do a whole bunch.

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Feeling OK 🙂

It’s been fun here and all.  I really do prefer Ontario though because I’m a Toronto girl and proud of it.  I want to go Ripley’s Aquarium so badly.  I’ve lived near Toronto all my life.  I miss it a lot.  I’ve got to do a lot of stuff since I’ve been in Saskatchewan. I have had a really good time and have a lot of opportunities.   It was for the best moving here, I don’t regret coming!!!

But hopefully there’s a chance we go back 🙂

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